Birthday

So my birthday was July 23rd. I am 25 now. AHH!
It was actually the worst birthday I have ever had, but I am still grateful, so I am not complaining, just stating fact. This year has been real hard and this birthday was my first without my papa.

When are your birthdays?

Honest Scrap

Thanks Suzi. I can't believe we share the same #1 =D

OK so 10 facts that none of you will know:

1.I have something called Emetophobia which is the fear of vomit/vomiting. If I feel sick I have panic attacks and can't breathe. I literally start to cry and wish my mom were around. I usually end up in the ER. The reason for this is that my body doesn't seem to have a shut off valve, once I start to vomit, it doesn't stop, I end up becoming severely dehydrated and pass out, and then wake up with an IV in my arm. So now if I begin to feel the slightest bit sick to my stomach I revert to a 5 year old child.

2. I play the Clarinet. Well, I haven't been actively playing it lately, but I played in band throughout middle school and high school.

3. I have a really hard time putting my thoughts into words. Everything in my head makes sense, but I am horrible about conveying them verbally.

4. I am afraid of the ocean. I used to be addicted to be in the water, I still love swimming but at a certain age the ocean bothered me. I live near the beach and was always fearless but now I get scared of the waves taking me in and never letting me out. While beautiful, the ocean is extremely powerful, and houses very scary creatures. I always get hurt now, and the fact that our water quality is quickly fading doesn't help any either.

5. I have never been out of the country. I want to travel so badly, but it's so expensive! I always wonder how other people travel so much, or how other people in other countries get to take so much holiday. I think because they get 6 weeks and the US are slave drivers and we don't get much time off? Sometimes it's hard for me to imagine what other countries are like. I want to experience it!

6. I feel like life is passing be by. I really want to have children, but I want to finish school before having children but I have approx 4 years left of school which will make me 29 when I finish, and I fear waiting that long to start a family. I have a strong desire to make sure we are stable before starting a family but I am impatient about it is well. It's something that has been on my mind a lot, especially with my recent loss.

7. I would be a vegetarian if I could just stop eating meat! I feel so sad about the way animals are treated, but I crave chicken and steak and I LOVE bacon. I am so conflicted!

8. I don't drink alcohol. Well SOMETIMES I will have a bit of wine, but just the smell of alcohol (vodka, taquila etc) makes me sick to my stomach. I find the consumption of it completely pointless. I find people who drink to get drunk annoy me.

9. I love the Disney channel. I am 24 years old and I thoroughly enjoy it. It is my favorite channel to watch. (I also love Discovery, Animal Planet and the cooking network)

10. I can't cook very well. Growing up with my grandparents they found it easier to make the food than to just teach me. So if I make chicken I am PARANOID that I didn't cook it enough andthat we will get sick. I end up overcooking it so that it is that great. I really hate I can't cook =(

Now it's your turn!

I TAG

Dianilu
Amyyy
Kerry

Working Out

Alright! With everything that has been going on I haven't been giving my body the love and attention it deserves. So last weekend and went and got a gym membership and purchased three personal training sessions. (hopefully I can get more!) I worked out Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Boy am I SORE. I am take the next few days to recover and then I will work out Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. Meals is going to be my greatest battle. Trying to figure out what to eat and when and have it taste good.

My weight Tuesday July 7th was 144. My goal weight is 125. 19 pounds!

Update

Blah. I have been terrible at updating my blog. This year has been a roller coaster. I just lost my grandfather, who raised me all the way from the time I was an infant until now, so it's like losing my father. It's really hard and I am struggling quite a bit. I am trying to find ways to keep myself busy but it's been really difficult.